Friday, 31 October 2014

End of October 2014 update

Nothing has changed since my last update I'm still having all symptoms. I have the date booked for my private MRA & MRV on the 28th November.  I'm looking forward to having it done but also worried nothing is found.  I can't afford any more testing after this and I will have to give up and live my life the way it is at the moment, full of pain and exhaustion!  I haven't managed to find another job and to be honest I don't think I could cope with a job.  How would I explain to a new employer I hear noises in my head and have a headache that I have had for two years and doctor's haven't been able to diagnose me.










Whirring Wanderer

Friday, 3 October 2014

Photo time!





 


I have attached a photo to show where I have the headache, this is the same side of my pulsatile tinnitus. ( I believe this is what I have, its not just normal tinnitus) It's very hard to describe the headache without showing where exactly it is.  Apologies for the doodle on my phone editing, this is the best I could do! The areas are approximate to give an idea. The red outline is predominantly the area where there is a constant headache and pressure and also where I experience my newer symptom of sound sensitivity.  The green cross is where I have a pressure sensation that is horrendous, its nothing I have ever experienced before all my symptoms started. On occasions I feel as if I have a deep vibrating in my neck but I can't feel anything when I touch and palpate my neck its much further in than that. The orange highlighted area on top of my head is also sore with a pressure and to touch.  All symptoms are left sided. If you have read my updates you will notice I have many more symptoms but these are the main ones.

Whirring Wanderer

Wednesday, 1 October 2014

September 2014 Update

Unfortunately the referral didn't go through,  my doctor surgery called to say there was no consultant of that name and could I give another name if I still wished to be referred.  I called the Spire Hospital and apparently I had chosen a doctor who had not worked there in some time and they couldn't give me access to that type of consultant however they emailed later in the day to say I could see the ENT specialist for tinnitus re-training for a package price of £5000.  I sent a reply email explaining I used the term pulsatile tinnitus and not tinnitus.  I have decided to use the pulsatile tinnitus term instead of tinnitus because anyone I speak with assumes its just ringing I hear and nothing can be done.  I constantly remind everyone that although I have developed buzzing tinnitus my so called main tinnitus does not buzz or ring it wooshes and whirrs!!! 



I searched compulsively on the internet looking for a Neuroradiologist but couldn't find one I could get access to.  In desperation I contacted the British Society of Neuroradiologists for doctor's names in Scotland that I could approach but unfortunately the email was bleak and stated they could not give out private information and suggested to go through my GP, little did they know I had visited my GP numerous times and they would no longer assist me on trying to find an answer to my symptoms. On the 22nd August I found a neurologist called Dr Tyagi who is a headache specialist so I quickly arranged an appointment for the following week on the 28th August.  I called my GP surgery and gave them the new doctor's name to be referred to and asked that a referral be typed up to take with me.  I collected the referral which I have to say was very poor and said LEFT SIDED FACIAL PAIN (the diagnosis that the private ENT Mr Marshall sent me with his bill) no other symptoms were noted and nothing else written on it, this proved my original thoughts that Dr Stevenson should have written the referral whilst I was at my last appointment with him. My appointment came round and my husband and I drove just under an hour to the appointment.  I handed over my two pages of typed symptoms.  (See bottom of the page for the list)


Dr Tyagi listened to everything I had to say and he used the word "pulsatile" to describe the sound I was hearing in my head.  He did a quick examination, looked at my eyes and listened to my head with a stethoscope, he said he could not hear anything.  To be honest no one would of heard anything in that room as there were several noises including a loud buzzing ceiling light. The consultant said the cause of the symptoms could be one of three options.  The first thing he said was an AVM or AVF he mentioned imaging would be needed but went on to say this was highly unlikely and sort of ruled it out, then he moved on to say about a rare type of migraine but he ruled that out after discussing it as I did not have sickness/nausea.  He then said there was a chance it could be nerve damage of the Occipital nerve and asked me some questions which my answers were no, my symptoms clearly to me did not fit the pattern he was suggesting.  Dr T suggested I take Pregabalin and if there was any nerve issues that it would help, he also stated he could refer me back to the pain clinic for a nerve block injection.  He wrote a letter requesting my doctor prescribe Pregablin and gave it to me to give to my doctor.  He said he would be happy to see me through the NHS and keep me under clinical review.  He said on leaving he had not met anyone with such symptoms and it was rare what I was experiencing.



On Monday morning of the 1st September I was at work and asked a colleague to fax my prescription request letter to my GP surgery as I had not used a fax machine in years.  In the afternoon at 3.05pm my Manager asked for a word in the office next door, I thought it was about my new roles within the company that were given to me on Wednesday 27th August.  On the Wednesday there had been a meeting between myself, my manager, the office manager from the office downstairs and also the repulsive woman I worked beside who has the title of Business Development Manager but really should have had the title passive aggressive bully.  I had the misfortune of working beside her for eighteen months and she was a vile woman towards me, I tried my best to get along with her.  She was furious that the previous Wednesday I had been given new roles within the company, very minor roles but they were greatly appreciated by me.  The word in the office next door was my marching order, I was told there was no longer a role within the company for me and that I was to leave that day and not come back, apparently the company was struggling financially and it was not viable to keep me on.  Between me finishing work on the Wednesday and returning on the Monday something had gone wrong, or had it?  Was it the bully? was it my prescription? or was it a combination of both?  I was too physically and mentally exhausted to argue, I deleted all the files I had worked on for the past eighteen months, cleared my drawer and left.  Three weeks later a new job was advertised by the company with a new job title, so much for the company struggling financially.  Again I was ill to do anything about it.




I started the pregabalin on the 4th September and apart from it making me extremely tired and spaced out it has done nothing for the headache, ear pain/pressure and the noise in my head.  I received a copy of the letter Dr Tyagi sent to my GP stating "I am unable to explain her noises in her head and the sound but the pulsatile nature of it may suggest that this may be related to her headache syndrome"  "I think the pain symptoms are best attributed to occipital neuropathy/neuralgia" 

A few days later Dr T. sent another letter to say he had reviewed my Nhs MRI scan and it was completely normal which I am very pleased about.  I just keep wondering what is causing all these debilitating symptoms and nothing is being found.  I still have a niggling that something is being missed!



I emailed Dr T the other evening on the 29th Sept explaining the pregabalin was doing nothing to help me and I also stated that I have developed a new symptom over the last few weeks in which my head and ear on the left side is very sensitive to certain sounds and I get a shock feeling and pain at the sounds of a car passing, cutlery clanging and certain voices.  I was a bit worried in case this was a side effect of the pregabalin or it could have developed before I started taking it and I have not noticed, I honestly don't know anymore. Dr T. responded this morning suggesting I take Amitriptyline or Duloxetine and should these not help arrange the nerve block.  I am rather upset now because I don't want to be abusing my body with multiple prescription drugs when I don't know what is causing my symptoms.  Obviously I am expected to just keep quiet and take the prescription until December when my next appointment is.  The drug he recommended Duloxetine is for people with anxiety and depression, I have neither although by doctors not helping me and by not investigating my symptoms it will end up causing me to have anxiety.  It seems to me that doctors automatically assume patients who make contact multiple times with their doctor over a medical problem are assigned a label of having anxiety and depression.  Do doctors not realise I went to them with a rhythmic baby ultrasound noise in my head and a constant headache, surely that can not be normal for a 30yr old woman, I never went to them about feeling low and worrying. I emailed Dr T. back asking him if he can forward me on to another consultant who can carry out imaging starting with an Mra & Mrv because the drug he recommended is not for me as I do not have anxiety and the bottom line is that I am still suffering with this dreadful headache, neck pressure, ear pressure and noise in my head. He wrote back saying he would organise the scan.  I've had enough battling with the Nhs and trying to get doctors to listen and take my symptoms seriously but I should not need to be paying private and researching all my symptoms, surely doctors should be looking into my symptoms.  Maybe NHS GP's do not research patients symptoms anymore.

I have all these questions running through my mind.

Why is no one interested in helping me?

What is causing the pulsating tinnitus and headache and the other array of symptoms?

Why would a fit and otherwise healthy 30 year old get pulsatile tinnitus and headache after overhead painting?

Why does every doctor try and separate all the symptoms that started around the same time.

Why can't I exercise? Why do I have pressure in my neck and head when I try to walk longer distances.

Why when my heart rate rises does my neck feel a deep vibrating and a lot of pressure, this also happens when I bend forward.

Below is what I had typed and gave to Dr Tyagi at the appointment.


Symptoms

Sitting on the sofa one evening on 24th October 2012 I became aware of a noise, I turned the television off and said to my husband I could hear a pulsing noise. I went to bed but couldn't sleep the noise was coming from my left ear and there was a deep pressure feeling, I eventually drifted off around 3am. In the morning I had a headache deep on the left side which was on the top of my head and above my ear. Later in the day I felt an ache pressure feeling in my neck below my ear lobe. I had a doctor's appointment a few weeks away that I had previously arranged and I would mention it then if it hadn't gone away. In the mean time I realised the noise was like my pre natal scans it was a baby's ultrasound noise, it became more noticeable and loud that I tried to convince my husband he could hear it by putting his ear to my head but he heard nothing. I had no idea what it was and still don't.

  • I have a constant whirring noise from within my head on the left side, this was originally a baby ultrasound noise woosh woosh woosh or whoaw whoaw whoaw sound that quietened down to a distant bass drum after some months then settled at a whirr that is a constant rhythm like a turbulence sound.
  • A few days after the baby ultrasound noise started I also noticed a low pitch electrical noise, I thought I had left the tv on standby or my mobile phone charging but soon realised the noise was where ever I was.
  • The headache is constant and has never left since 2012, I describe it as a dull constant ache and at times I would say its a pressure headache, it is above the ear and diagonally above the ear towards the back of the head and at times slightly on the top but still all left sided, I can draw a line round where the headache stays and its all left sided. I realised one day leaning my head on my hand caused the electrical noise to get louder. Another thing I realised last year in 2013 is when the headache feels more of a pressure I can put weight on the top of my head with both my hands and the pressure slightly goes and the electrical sound is quieter. As soon as I release the weight of my hands the pressure and electrical noise returns. When my headache is more pressurised the whirr noise seems louder. My headache is very noticeable first thing in the morning when standing its as if my head is trying to adjust to its new position after laying down all night. I also have pressure in the temple area when bending forward.
  • I have pressure and a strange ache in my neck on my left side below the ear lobe, this is not sore to press or touch as it is deep within my neck, if I bend forward to pick anything up from the floor the pressure in my neck gets really bad and I get a loud woosh sound for a few seconds however this sound seems different to my original baby ultrasound noise, I call it my roar sound. This happens first thing in the morning when getting out of bed, bending over and walking up the stairs and occasionally getting up from sitting to standing. I try and fool it by getting out of bed really slowly by rolling on to my side, sitting up slowly and standing slowly but the roar appears. The pressure and ache in my neck doesn't bother me too much and comes and goes depending what I'm doing. I would say I more notice it when I'm moving around more, walking home from work and my heart rate is higher. The pressure in my neck also returns when I first lie down then it settles down.
  • I have pressure and a deep ache felt inside the left ear behind the ear drum, feels as if something is pushing from the inside out, the ear creaks and pops constantly through out the day. I feel my ear pressure is worse when the headache is more pressurised.
  • I developed a low pitch buzzing noise in my right ear months after initial symptoms but this sound is different to the left ear electrical noise and resembles all different sounds like an alarm, mosquito’s and ringing, originally these sounds would wake me but they don't bother me now and I'm used to them.
  • I developed pressure and a dull ache behind my left eye around 7 months after initial symptoms started, my eye creaks on its own and squelches when touched, I noticed this originally when applying make-up, this is not an every day thing but when my headache is worse then my eye creaks. Around the same time I noticed a blur from my left eye that resembles haze lines, a water blotch and some times a spiders web it mainly happens when I'm walking.
    I occasionally have a pressure on the left side of my nose at the bridge more noticeable when walking and on an odd occasion a strange sensation over my cheek bone but only lasts for seconds.

Till next time, thanks for reading.
Whirring Wanderer




Friday, 8 August 2014

August 2014 Update

I received a letter the following week after my pain clinic appointment from Dr Meiklejohn. The letter states "I spoke to the Consultant Radiologist today who reported your MRI scan looking specifically at your sinuses and could not identify any abnormality, he also could not identify any other abnormality in the scan". 

I now have to believe what is written on the letter in black and white, I have nothing wrong with any sinus or surrounding area which is good, in fact very good as that rules out that there is nothing wrong with my brain which is very positive but it has now left me searching for another answer to my symptoms.  These are real symptoms that I experience, I doubt myself all the time but I am sure its not all in my head!!!  Is it my veins? is it my arteries? I honestly don't know!  Back to Dr Google, I will keep searching.

Last week was not a good week, my headache, whirring noise and immense pressure was flooring me and I ended up off work for two days lying flat in my bed and sleeping constantly as I was so exhausted.  I done some research and found out about a doctor who is a Consultant Neuroradiologist and visited my doctor Dr Stevenson on 31st July for a referral. I felt Dr St. was a little on the defensive and to be honest was not interested that I was off work for two days and had to lie in bed, he offered nothing but agreed he would do the referral.  I explained the MRI was apparently reviewed and nothing was wrong with my sinuses or surrounding areas therefor I wanted someone who could potentially be able to refer me to someone who could look at the veins and arteries in my head to rule anything out, he sat nodding his head and said to give the details to the receptionist and he would arrange it. I had the details to give him but he was hesitant and asked again that I give the details to the front desk. I wanted him to write the referral whilst I was there like the previous occasion so that I knew exactly what was in the notes for referral. He also said he would do his utmost so that the referral got to the consultant as he was aware my previous two referral's to the private ENT were lost.  At least he admitted that.  He asked if I wanted the Consultant to have a copy of all my notes including communications with what each doctor has reported, I admit I was a bit wary of this considering at previous appointments doctors did not write anything down about my symptoms nor did they take me seriously. I did eventually agree and said I would also take my own list of symptoms and that was the end of my appointment.  I gave reception the details of the consultant and she brought them up on the screen and said it would be done as soon as possible.

I am now waiting on an appointment coming through from the Consultant Neuroradiologist however I have emailed and had no response and I have telephoned the private secretary and it rings out. 

Whirring Wanderer

Thursday, 17 July 2014

Pain Clinic 15th July 2014

I had another pain clinic appointment two days ago on 15th July that I was unsure of attending because I did not think I would gain anything by going but I'm glad that I did go that morning.  Dr Meiklejohn felt there were still some issues needing cleared up before he could start treating me after I told him about my recent disastrous ENT appointment.  I said to Dr M. I felt like a ping pong ball and I was getting no where. Dr M. said he would personally call the radiographer who read my MRI to go over it with a fine toothcomb and then report back to me within a few days and if he personally wasn't happy with the reading of the MRI he would arrange another one set up to look at certain areas.  For the first time I felt hopeful and in hearing this I asked if it would be possible to ask the radiologist to look specifically at the Sphenoid Sinus and the Pituitary Gland as I know they can cause problems.  My OGD Obsessive Googling Disorder had led me to looking at parts of the head that causes headaches.  Dr M. said this would not be a problem and pass on my information.


Whirring Wanderer

Sunday, 22 June 2014

Alcohol is a No No

Since my symptoms started in Oct 2012 I have really struggled to have a sociable drink amongst friends and family.  When I do the noises and pressure in my head heightens and this happens with just two drinks.  I am not a big drinker anyway but I'd like to have more than two, I'm only 32 and should be allowed to enjoy myself once in a while.  Before my symptoms started I could enjoy a bottle of wine on a rare night out and have no side effects, I just can't do that now.  Last night I had two small vodkas and this morning I have a raging headache worse than my normal one that has been with me all this time, still left sided.  The whirring in my head is very loud and the pressure is making me feel off balance, it sounds as if I have a turbulent river in my head like there's a dam that the water can't get through .



All for now
Whirring Wanderer

Thursday, 5 June 2014

June 2014 Update ENT appointment

I haven't managed to see my GP since my last post, routine appointments at my doctor's surgery are generally afternoons to see Dr Stevenson and I can only manage a Friday afternoon due to work and family.  However I have visited the dentist on Friday 23rd May and explained my symptoms and paid to have my teeth x-rayed with no abnormality found on left side so I know my teeth are not causing my symptoms.

I also had my ENT appointment on Tues 27th May.  I was expecting to see the same doctor Miss Shanks whom I seen last year as this was the named doctor on my appointment letter but she was no where to be seen.  I was happy to see another new doctor, maybe they would listen and try and find out the cause. The doctor was called Dr Mir.  My first impressions of him were very good, he introduced himself and asked why I was there so I explained I had been suffering from rhythmic tinnitus which is a whirring noise and headache (originally a wooshing noise) along with headache ear/neck pain and pressure since October 2012 and that more symptoms had developed including blur in my eye and veering to the left.  I handed him the list of symptoms I had typed up and printed out, he read the first 3 or 4 and sat it down.  He looked at me and said "lets start at the beginning I will look at you as a brand new patient, tell me how this all started"  I thought to myself, finally someone is going to take time and listen fully so I steadily explained that night in October 2012 with the wooshing sound then the headache the next morning, followed by neck pain and pressure, he seemed interested.  He decided to examine me and checked both ears, he found no problem, he had a glance up my nose and found no problem, he looked at the back of my throat and said he could see lymphatic tissue.  He asked if I had any throat infections which I haven't had recently but I explained I had one in December 2013 in which I had to have an antibiotic.  Dr Mir decided to use a camera to look up my nose and at the back of my throat, this wasn't pleasant but at least it was another step. The camera went up my right nostril very easily and I could feel the camera at the back of my throat in no time, next it was the left nostril and (Arghhhhhhhh) this was painful it seemed to get stuck and I let out a yelp eventually he pulled it back out and had another go manoeuvring it slowly and eventually I could feel it had reached the back of my throat.  Afterwards he said he noticed that there were three minor things that he had found that were not causing my symptoms but he said "I am only telling you just in case someone else further down the line tells you the same things, "1. you have adenoid tissue and 2. tonsil tissue on the left side, I am unsure if they have grown back or whether they were properly removed in the first instance and 3. you have a severe deviated septum leaning toward the left"  This might explain the mucous drainage I have on the left side occasionally.

I was slightly puzzled that the two previous ENT doctors had not mentioned anything about the leftover tissue as they had examined my throat, it seems some doctors will mention what they find and others won't.  Dr Mir continued to ask if I had my hearing checked recently so I explained it was tested last year but I felt my hearing was now becoming affected yet he decided not to test my hearing again as he felt it would be fine. 

The next thing Dr Mir suggests is that he will refer me back to the pain clinic, I was nearly in tears at this point and for the first time felt extremely angry.  I asked some questions about my symptoms stating the only reason I ask is that I have a huge amount of symptoms and I'm really suffering and can't exercise, the headache really wears me down as does the whirring noise. What happened next left me in shock.  He explained as a doctor he is the professional and he is learning all the time and continues to learn but it is up to the professionals and they decide if I have a good quality of life or not??? He continued "as a doctor when I go to see a doctor for a medical issue I am not allowed to question the doctor and I am not allowed to see what a doctor writes about me" did you know that? are your surprised by that, you as a patient you would think that as a doctor I am allowed to know everything that is on my notes, well I'm not".  I sat stunned with glazed eyes and felt as if I was back at primary school. I looked around and noticed the nurse was out the room.  Did I really hear an ENT doctor have a rant because I asked a question. When the nurse returned I plucked up some courage, looked him in the eye and said "there is something wrong with me, I am not suffering all these symptoms for nothing" and he said, "I agree there is probably something wrong but we just can't pin it down and the best plan is to refer you back to the pain clinic where they will sort some pain killer out and that will make you feel a whole lot better, you look a very positive person and will cope just fine, you might start to feel better and be able to exercise when you have painkillers"  I felt he was patronising me.  The appointment finished, it was a complete waste of time.  I still had the severe headache, ear pressure, neck pressure, blurring in my eye and my friends whoosh and whirr, I felt as if I was back at the start in October 2012.





Whirring Wanderer